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dearest Anonymity,

follow the power lines with your eyes.

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it is so strange, the way everything connects in my life; the way random people that i thought would never even have met each other know each other very well. and i find these things out so accidentally. i really don't understand it.

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isn't it funny, the way boys treat girls, and vice versa?

how a peice of crumpled straw wrapper thrown at one's shoulder can say, "i find you attractive" is a mystery to me, but it does somehow.

he has such lovely brown eyes.


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inconspicuous ghost.

he played an ivory piano

and breathed soft the harmony

of the melody sung by the keys

in an otherwise silent coliseum



but there was no audience

only the insects

under the floorboards

the ravens in the rafters



and

one

very

inconspicuous

ghost

Something New in My Life.

Well, I am officially an album artist. This opens so many doors for me. I am making artwork for musicians... I still can barely believe that this opportunity has knocked on my door this early in my life. Album art has always intrigued me, and I draw a lot of my artistic inspiration from music, so making album art is ideal, and finally I get to be what I have wanted to be for a great deal of time!

Much of this, well all of it actually, is thanks to my chance encounter with Tyler in the school library. Despite my aversion to people randomly seating themselves in front of me and starting a conversation out of nowhere, I am very glad that Tyler did this, cause if it weren't for him and his band, I would not have had this opportunity.

But, (of course, there's always a but) Opportunity could not have chosen a more inopportune time to impose on me. I'm still swamped with loads of other responsibilities. Life enjoys making things stressful for me I think.

I'll make it work somehow.

Oh, before I forget... electro-shock therapy is really interesting. I have physical therapy (because of my ladder incident) and my therapist treated my tense shoulder with electricity. A fascinating experience, actually. I enjoyed it.

Well. It has been a while, hasn't it?

Since my last post I have....

-Started school

-Deprived myself of necessary sleep

-Fallen off a ladder at work

-Gotten poked in uncomfortable places by a Chinese doctor

-Done about eight tons of homework

All this in the past five days! I am completely exhausted. And everything has changed this year. Once again, (as usual I should say) I feel completely out of place unless I'm with select people, and even then, if certain people are combined there are awkward situations. I miss last year's group... It was so good, until people changed. Now everything is over-dramatic, even more so than last year, and I feel like I'm wasting my time trying to befriend people because they hardly ever end up being deep, thoughtful, or interesting, unique people. It's very frustrating. I had hoped this year would be better.... but no...

I'm jumping to conclusions. It's been a week. Maybe things will get better? If it did I would be pleasantly surprised.

I have no time to do anything I want to. It makes me so sad. Homework, work, school, chores... they all consume all my day. All week I have had no time to sketch, or play my guitar, or just relax and watch a movie, or post anything on my blog. This can't be healthy. Humans need time to do the things we like to do or we get depressed and angry. But today I'm actually sitting at the computer for more than 2 minutes, and not rushing through my email. It's amazing. I hope the year gets less hectic and I won't have to cram a lot of work into not a lot of time within a few weeks. I wouldn't count on it though. Advanced classes tend to take a lot of study time.

I looked at myself in a mirror before English class today and I looked so pale, it scared me.

I need more hours in the day.

cross-legged

sat



cross-



legged





on the floor yesterday.

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and the castles grew

out of the clouds

as the imgainary piano

sang to me.

~*~

the spider spun her web

in a corner somewhere

in my skull.

~*~

wish you were here.




[I got one of the pictures to work... I guess I'll just have to post the other one separately :(.]