Well. It has been a while, hasn't it?

Since my last post I have....

-Started school

-Deprived myself of necessary sleep

-Fallen off a ladder at work

-Gotten poked in uncomfortable places by a Chinese doctor

-Done about eight tons of homework

All this in the past five days! I am completely exhausted. And everything has changed this year. Once again, (as usual I should say) I feel completely out of place unless I'm with select people, and even then, if certain people are combined there are awkward situations. I miss last year's group... It was so good, until people changed. Now everything is over-dramatic, even more so than last year, and I feel like I'm wasting my time trying to befriend people because they hardly ever end up being deep, thoughtful, or interesting, unique people. It's very frustrating. I had hoped this year would be better.... but no...

I'm jumping to conclusions. It's been a week. Maybe things will get better? If it did I would be pleasantly surprised.

I have no time to do anything I want to. It makes me so sad. Homework, work, school, chores... they all consume all my day. All week I have had no time to sketch, or play my guitar, or just relax and watch a movie, or post anything on my blog. This can't be healthy. Humans need time to do the things we like to do or we get depressed and angry. But today I'm actually sitting at the computer for more than 2 minutes, and not rushing through my email. It's amazing. I hope the year gets less hectic and I won't have to cram a lot of work into not a lot of time within a few weeks. I wouldn't count on it though. Advanced classes tend to take a lot of study time.

I looked at myself in a mirror before English class today and I looked so pale, it scared me.

I need more hours in the day.